It's only a few weeks and my body's already started doing some very strange things. Not only am I exhausted, but I’ve got a funny metallic taste in my mouth and my nose has gone into overdrive making everything smell really, really, strong. I even went to put on my usual perfume the other morning and it made me feel sick – very bizarre.
Nick’s made up his mind to have another go at giving up smoking now that we are having a baby, which is great. I know it's going to be tough, but he’s taking it very seriously and even paid his first visit to the anti- smoking clinic at Dr MacKenzie’s this week. I’m so proud of him – and very relieved that I managed to quit when we last tried a couple of years ago.
Seeing as he's being so good, I’ve decided that I’m definitely going to stop drinking for the whole of my pregnancy – although, to be honest, that isn’t very tricky at the moment as even a whiff of white wine makes me feel queasy. Anyway, I don’t want to take any chances with the baby and it’ll be good for me too. Looks like this pregnancy is going to be a challenge for the both of us.
At work, my pregnancy spaced-out feeling is doing its best to make things difficult. I’m trying to carry on as normal but everyone keeps telling me how pale I look and asking if I am ill (how come all the pregnant celebs manage to look glowing? It's not fair!). I kept mumbling something about a dodgy stomach bug but I don’t think that’ll work for long, so I might have to tell my boss, Susan, soon. I just hope she’s OK with my news. I've been reading loads of pregnancy stuff online. There’s so much information it’s hard to take it all in. The general stuff’s fine, but then I came across pictures of women giving birth which really freaked me out! I can’t believe I am actually going to be doing that. One thing’s for sure, Nick won’t be taking any pictures of me when I’m in labour!
I’ve downloaded this very cool app which tells me how my baby's growing each week. It's hard to believe how something this small (according to the app my baby is now roughly the size of a blueberry!) can have such a strong effect on me.
On Friday night it all got a bit too much – I think it was a mix of feeling exhausted and stressed, plus all those pregnancy hormones racing around my body – and when I got home from work I just felt like crying. I was worrying about whether I’d be a good mum, if I’d feel as bad as this all through my pregnancy and how I’d cope with actually giving birth all at once! Poor Nick didn’t know what to do with me and I think he is quite worried that I might be like this for the whole of my pregnancy!
Thankfully, I was back to normal after two mammoth lie-ins at the weekend – pure bliss! Nick even managed to make me some toast before he went out to football on Sunday morning, which isn't what normally happens so I know I must have looked rough! It’s just so hard to believe how little energy I have, I knew pregnancy was meant to make you tired, but not like this. I just need sleep, sleep and more sleep.